survivor

its a survivor.
innumerable cups of fresh and stale tea later
experiments with 2 brands, and 5 flavors of toothpaste later
bouts of sleep semi-sleep insomnia later
focused recourses to reason and un-reason later 
many conversations, more silences later
rich hauls from nostalgic waters notwithstanding,
it stays, and how. 
the lingering taste of failure.
delicious.