incompatibility

seeking solitude
in crowds of strangers and others.
a deeply held sorrow
punctured by uncontrollable laughter.
travelling the world
within the confines of a windowless room.
numbing oneself anew
with continous shots of old begrudging pain.
singing songs of freedom
and painstakingly reinforcing prison walls.

Sigh.
to be incompatible
with oneself.