Wednesday, December 30, 2015

love in the time of cholera


conversations with a textured wall 
are so finely layered, 
perfect for winter evenings.  
though after a tiresome day 
the shades of the others
often suffice. 
laughter rings around 
a room of furniture
mellow in a yellow light
and dancing in the eyes  
that read its cause
in the breathtaking beauty
of words that couldn't 
 have found each other  
except in an engulfing book 
 with a flaming red cover
settle on lips  
that still need to whisper
to comprehend love.
tea for one is made
everyday,
brewed in the same utensil
poured into the same cup  
from the red plastic strainer,
each washed and ready
for the next round
while the rest of the kitchen
looks on.
the cane chair in the balcony  
relishes the winter sun
and comes back in at dusk.  
its companion chair chooses  
to be a clothes rack  
without complaint.
the bed for one  
neatly laid out
lies unruffled
through the night.
mornings usually find
a crumpled sofa 
heady with pillows
and the stench of cigarettes.
 
solitude is beautiful.

but incomparable 
is the intimacy  
of loneliness.

a winter afternoon

eyes that burn with smoke
from fierce memories
of love "gone all to hell"
seek in warm tears
hands that could soothe
the despair of painlessness.
a quiet house
with all things in place
letting in bright sunshine
from its windows
that breaks into crystals
on a glass of cold water
soaks tenderly
the chaotic noise
of a mind in its senses
yearning madness.

winter afternoons
can never be leisurely again.

Saturday, December 26, 2015

longing

a longing sometimes
has names
and things to tether it
at other times
it is a wild flap of wings
unsure of the skies
they crawl under
for flights and fantasies
want names and things.

and yet there remain
longings
neither one nor the other
a sprinkling of both
(not enough to be them)
warming themselves
by the first fire ever made
in an ancient cave
with dancing inscriptions
long before language
could rationalise desires
under the watchful gaze of bats
and the music of rustling leaves
in a perpetual winter.

that is where i find myself
when i think of you.