purpling

i am going purple.
people are noticing.
one can explain a black eye.
and hide a black heart.
but this purpling.
how do i tell the world
(or even why
-as if they'd understand)
of you
coursing through my veins.
"I am not coming in to work
from tomorrow.
Sorry for the short notice."
a few abuses later,
the world moves on.
and i look up colours
on good old google
to find a name
for the shade i am turning.
three hues to black.
now two.
the countdown has begun.